If you follow the online world of anti-civ discussion you might already be aware of the departure of Abe Cabrera from this world, apparently as a reaction to the responses to his writing projects.
For anyone reading this who are unaware of Abe or his projects, I will briefly sum Abe up, as best I can.
My first time encountering Abe was in September 2016, after reading content from his 2 blogs Wandering Cannibals and Atassa (both now deleted). Abe’s writings were relentless and unforgiving. He had a near Artaudian energy to his approach, which sparked in me immediate interest.
We soon after became “friends” through Facebook and I found myself caught between contradictory feelings towards him. What respect I had and have for Abe, regarding his engaging, critical and unforgiving arguments, became forced up against disappointment towards his vulgarity as a troll, the narcissism he revelled in as his infamy grew and the apparent lack of creativity, as he continually parroted the ideas of other’s within the eco-extremist milieu, which he was the English language voice of, and became reduced to perpetual negation. (Perhaps I was naïve to have hoped for much more from him. Maybe he was perfectly all he could have been.)
But I maintained interest in him, as he and his project succeeded in challenging the sensibilities and aesthetics of the vast majority of the anarchist milieu. During what will remain in my memory as the EE (eco-extremism) vs IGD (It’s Going Down website) saga of 2017, the upset caused by the Atassa journal Abe edited and contributed content towards shook anarchist discourse to the core. He and the eco-extremists he was a voice for challenged many of the presuppositions of its contemporary anarchist ideologues and forced us, particularly those of us anarchists within the anti-civ conversation, to stand naked and acknowledge those aspects of the wild that are most challenging to our world-views, which are in many ways still tied to the logic of civilisation and domestication.
As his infamy grew, Abe seemed to get more and more cultish, claiming to worship demons and becoming seemingly more and more interested in the super-natural. His final upload to his Wandering Cannibals blog exemplified this, with his appeals to Christian-type (albeit perhaps of an inverted Christianity) eschatological discourse (all of the blogs content can be found at this link https://ia801505.us.archive.org/33/items/wccontent69420/Zhu%205.pdf).
I cannot deny that the cultish aspects of Abe’s projects became increasingly disappointing, but his, strangely reminiscent of Jim Jone’s suicide, abandonment of the digital world is even more disappointing and I cannot deny being sad to have lost his voice from this aspect of the conversation.
I’ve seen some claim that Abe’s departure from the digital world was a reaction to hate from antifa type left-anarchists, but I do not believe this (or rather, I do not want to believe this). I’d rather believe that this has been done as an act of theatre of cruelty, an act of trolling par-excellent, where Abe intended that I, and others who took interest in his projects, would be disappointed in him and he could “lulz” as we ponder his disappearance. Alongside this, I’d like to think that this was a clever ploy to spark interest in the second issue of Atassa, leaving those of us who are interested in his thoughts forced to go to the journal for his ideas, rather than his blogs.
Whatever is the case, I hope this eulogy can stand as testament to an individual/writer/thinker/troll who was, if nothing else, undeniably provocative and interesting. He was in many ways ugly and worthy of critique and criticism, but was also brilliant in many ways and I will miss him. (And I hope he is thoroughly disgusted by this, should he ever read it).
by Julian Langer